I can never drive my car over a bridge without thinking of suicide. I can never look at a lake or an ocean without thinking of suicide.
I was naturally a loner, content just to live with a woman, eat with her, sleep with her, walk down the street with her. I didn't want conversation, or to go anywhere except the racetrack or the boxing matches. I didn't understand t.v. I felt foolish paying money to go into a movie theatre and sit with other people to share their emotions. Parties sickened me. I hated the game-playing, the dirty play, the flirting, the amateur drunks, the bores.
Interpretation
What this quote means
The quote reflects a preference for solitude and simple companionship over social interactions and societal norms.
In this quote, Charles Bukowski expresses his inclination towards solitude and minimalism in relationships, emphasizing a deep connection with one person rather than participating in social distractions and superficial interactions. He finds fulfillment in the simplicity of sharing life with a partner, yet feels alienated and frustrated by social gatherings and the complexities of casual relationships, preferring instead the authenticity of genuine companionship over mainstream social activities.
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Example use cases
During a discussion on introversion at a social gathering.
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