And no, it wasn't shame I now felt, or guilt, but something rarer in my life and stronger than both: remorse. A feeling which is more complicated, curdled, and primeval. Whose chief characteristic is that nothing can be done about it: too much time has passed, too much damage has been done, for amends to be made.
Interpretation
Remorse is a complex emotion that arises from past actions where one feels a deep sense of regret but realizes that nothing can rectify the situation.
This quote by Julian Barnes delves into the intricate nature of remorse, describing it as a powerful emotion that transcends guilt and shame. Unlike guilt, which can sometimes be alleviated, remorse acknowledges that certain actions have irreversible consequences, leaving an indelible mark on one's conscience as time moves forward, making amends impossible to achieve.
In practice
Use this quote when discussing the complexities of human emotions in a psychology class.
(on grief) And you do come out of it, that’s true. After a year, after five. But you don’t come out of it like a train coming out of a tunnel, bursting through the downs into sunshine and that swift, rattling descent to the Channel; you come out of it as a gull comes out of an oil-slick. You are tarred and feathered for life.
Is despair wrong? Isn’t it the natural condition of life after a certain age? … After a number of events, what is there left but repetition and diminishment? Who wants to go on living? The eccentric, the religious, the artistic (sometimes); those with a false sense of their own worth. Soft cheeses collapse; firm cheeses endurate. Both go mouldy.
It took me some years to clear my head of what Paris wanted me to admire about it, and to notice what I preferred instead. Not power-ridden monuments, but individual buildings which tell a quieter story: the artist's studio, or the Belle Epoque house built by a forgotten financier for a just-remembered courtesan.
But I’ve been turning over in my mind the question of nostalgia, and whether I suffer from it. I certainly don’t get soggy at the memory of some childhood knickknack; nor do I want to deceive myself sentimentally about something that wasn’t even true at the time—love of the old school, and so on. But if nostalgia means the powerful recollection of strong emotions—and a regret that such feelings are no longer present in our lives—then I plead guilty.
And that's a life, isn't it? Some achievements and some disappointments. It's been interesting to me, though I wouldn't complain or be amazed if others found it less so. Maybe, in a way, Adrian knew what he was doing. Not that I would have missed my own life for anything, you understand. [pp.60-61]
Every love story is a potential grief story.
Prayer is commission. Out of the quietness with God, power is generated that turns the spiritual machinery of the world. When you pray, you begin to feel the sense of being sent, that the divine compulsion is upon you.
Human rights is the only ideology that deserves to survive
Truly man is the king of beasts, for his brutality exceeds them. We live by the death of others. We are burial places.
It is good that war is so horrible, or we might grow to like it.
England is obsessed with where you came from, and they are determined to keep you in that place, be it in a drawing room or in the gutter.
Tis not where we lie but whence we fell; the loss of Heaven's the greatest pain in Hell.
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