I want to spend my time with people who don't look to be respected. But such good people won't want to spend their time with me.
I soon came to understand that drink, tobacco and prostitutes were all great means if dissipating (even for a few moments) my dread for human beings. I came even to feel that if I had to sell every last possession to obtain these means of escape, it would be well worth it.
Interpretation
What this quote means
The quote reflects on the use of vices as temporary escapes from the anxieties of human existence.
In this quote, Osamu Dazai expresses a profound sense of alienation and dread towards human beings, suggesting that he turns to substances and experiences commonly seen as vices—such as alcohol, tobacco, and company of prostitutes—as a means to mitigate his feelings of anxiety and despair. The intensity of his willingness to sacrifice everything for these temporary escapes highlights a deep struggle with the burdens of human connection and existence, illustrating the lengths to which one might go to alleviate emotional suffering.
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Example use cases
This quote could be used in a discussion about coping mechanisms during a psychology seminar.
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Unhappiness. There are all kinds of unhappy people in the world. I suppose it would be no exaggeration to say that the world is composed entirely of unhappy people. But those people can fight their unhappiness with society fairly and squarly, and society for its part easily understands and sympathizes with such struggles. My unhappiness stemmed entirely from my own vices, and I had no way of fighting anybody.
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