What I wanted was to die among strangers, untroubled, beneath a cloudless sky. And yet my desire differed from the sentiments of that ancient Greek who wanted to die under the brilliant sun. What I wanted was some natural, spontaneous suicide. I wanted a death like that of a fox, not yet well versed in cunning, that walks carelessly along a mountain path and is shot by a hunter because of its own stupidity.
Is there not a sort of remorse that precedes sin? Was it remorse at the very fact that I existed?
Interpretation
What this quote means
The quote suggests that feelings of guilt or remorse can exist even before one commits a wrongdoing, questioning the nature of existence itself.
Yukio Mishima's quote reflects on the complex emotions that arise from self-awareness and existence. It suggests that the awareness of one's existence may bring about a sense of guilt or remorse, hinting at an internal conflict where one feels a pre-emptive guilt not necessarily tied to actions taken but rather as a fundamental aspect of the human condition. This contemplation of sin and existence raises deep philosophical questions about morality and consciousness.
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In practice
Example use cases
In a lecture about the moral implications of our choices, this quote could open a discussion about the nature of guilt and existence.
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